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Ever had the feeling? That of losing something, of missing someone. I bet being humans we all would have gone through such things more or less often. That always brings up a sense of de javu in our minds invariably, the feeling of why did it have to happen with you? I remember such a void actually happen to me when i lost a friend of mine during my college days. So how do we need to tackle this? What would you do ? Its hard to digest the fact that the person with whom you went out and had breaks with, cut classes, enjoyed playing games will never be there for all that next time. Thats the closest I have felt to being void, that feeling of being nothing from inside. No matter how much ever practical you are , you cant help blaming or cursing the ultimate power in this world for that. Some people try to isolate themselves from others till they overcome the shock. I certainly feel that is not the way to go about it. The more you talk it out, the more you feel relieved believe me. And you have to see the greater picture in life. That of the life ahead. The more time you spend coming out of that shock, the more damage you are doing to yourself and the people around you. Picture this, a bubbly ,cheerful person turning sober for days and days together forgetting to even smile at the greatest of PJ's. Not pleasant huh?? You as a family or friend of that person in shock would be obviously sad . I know people can be selfish , even friends can in the contemporary world. But they will certainly not be amused at your state. Maybe they will carry your sorrow for sometime, but then they will move on with their lives. You have to be prepared for this. The only way you out of this is to move on with life. One of the best ways to do so, is by pursuing any of your passions which I understand some of them might need more than just your breaks to pursue. Thats just one of my suggestions.

One of the most common reasons why we take such a long time is also because we are trying to fix our lives. Wondering how? Just take for example, you wake up in the morning, expecting a tea from your mom, then moving into the living room, switching on your TV to watch some program, then doing your daily activities just like an executable program runs. Getting the idea? Yeah the idea of being organized also means idea of being monotonous which is exactly what you expect out of your computer program. The more you are dependent on it, the more you feel miserable and helpless. And one particular element missing means the whole system goes haywire. What one needs to understand is that, we can be unorganized and still do our duties without fail. When I say unorganized , it doesn't mean skipping your duties,delaying your appointments or anything. Being unorganized means trying to prepare ourselves for the uncertainty.These things can happen, and happen only in life not in machines. If we start putting ourselves the way machines work, there is no uncertainty, there is no life,there is no fun.
So go ahead and push yourself ahead if you are stuck on to something because hey!! thats life. I have had my fixes in life but not anymore. I end this post here. Kindly do share your thoughts on this post. :)

Time

Its something we cant hold back. It wasn't until recently that i understood what this mean. It means you are losing your childhood, It means you are losing your youth, it means you are aging , it means you are running out of time with every passing moment. Its a strange feeling. There are so many things one would wish one could do. If only time could be turned around, we may think. But what you chose is how things shape out. There are so many possibilities in each decision we take in our daily lives. Thats when you start to believe in something called fate. Your instincts make you do things and the only thing you can do is rebut the very step that you took and try to come up with a better option.

I vividly remember a scene from one of my all time favorite movies, The matrix. Neo is asked by Morpheous "do you believe in fate?".. And Neo answers "No". The reason he cites is and I quote "I don't like the idea that I am not in control of my life". This is how an optimist would always think. But is it really the way it is? Well thats a thought to be pondered over. I don't think we could ever think that we would make all the right moves. After all we are all humans and to err is being ourselves, being human.

I have had regrets over certain decisions in life, but I have also made some good decisions in life. With time one gains in better understanding of our very own life. The way we fit into this world , into this system called society which has its own rules and semantics. Till we perfect the art of making the right decisions we are bound to make mistakes. And that art takes time. Some people are perfect that art too soon, some are not so lucky and some take a while to reach that stage. What one should understand though is that it is taking time. It is ticking your clock backwards. And there is nothing you can do about it. There is no reason to panic, there is no reason to be sad. The only thing we can do is make sure we live every moment of our lives. Existing is being zombie, living is for life. Time will keep running out, but you can do more in life. Time never stops for anyone but time can certainly be enjoyed in every happy moment we spend in our lives. So stay cheerful and happy and enjoy the time thats going by. Please do share your comments on the post and stay cheerful always.:)

This is me :)

People who know me can think of me the way they want to. This post is for those who don't know me with my perspective about me. Well to begin with, I am Mridul. Well my name means soft or tender literally which most of my friends disapprove of as they don't find me suiting that name. Hey! its their view, I am not questioning that. I am here to share what i think. Nobody can question that.

I would like to put myself as a simple, humble and a realistic person.I think thats a fair enough statement I would make about myself. To me family, friends and relatives matter to me the most in that order. I love my family, my source of courage and happiness followed very closely by my friends. I am very choosy in making friends, but I do have lot many friends most of whom I would have known for years and years. I have had privilege of studying in a college full of gems, both at heart and in life so far. I take pride having such friends. I just hope they find me as good as I find them. I have great friends dating back to my primary schooling days and I continue to make new ones as I move on in life. Right now I am in a dilemma.

I wish to be friends with someone , but that someone is eluding me. I have this eagerness to speak to that someone and get close but I am shy to start off. I hope I get enough courage to speak to that someone and make friends soon. This will be most understood by persons who are with me these day. The people whom I interact with the most these days. Well for those who don't know me, I would want that to be a mystery. And the person in question here , I wish knows this soon.

Moving on with my intro I love bit of everything. I love watching movies, listening to music.If I had to choose only 2 out of the rest of the options it would be movies, music always. I am quite passionate about these two things in life. I am more director specific in choosing movies to watch. But I can watch Aamir khan movies without any such inputs. He is very intelligent person when it comes to choosing the roles and he has proved that over the years. The only person who I think is versatile and does justice to his talent. All others are typecasted, cliched so to say. I love listening to songs. There are many favorites Lucky Ali, KK,Palash Sen, Shreya Ghoshal, Sonu Nigam are few of the artists i love listening to and some English Bands like Metallica,Linkin Park,Evanescence to name a few.


I think I have shared enough of what I wanted to. I will keep posting something or the other to keep you guys busy reading my blogs. Do share your comments on this post.

My First Blog

So here i am. Finally blogging something. Let me hope that i can come up with something that is worth sharing and worth reading. I have to thank my codeguru for initiating his blogs followed by aru who has been insipirational with his blogs at times. Well for those who are wondering what my blog url name means, it is 'c'est la vie' which translates to 'Thats life'.